nt a dae out Thursday, November 17, 2005 11/17/2005 08:57:00 PM
woke up abt 11.30... suddenli tearz drp dwn my cheeckz... i cnt 4get abt yest... my eyes were red... haiz... had my shower n on my hp... had 1 msg frm kak dian... trying 2 ignored it bt felt so bad thus i replied... haiz... suddenli teringt my other sistaz... sms dem wiv a sad msgz... had deir repli... felt so bad4 making em sad bt its nt tat i wan... aniwaez... kept playing comp wen dad wen 2 werk... oni eat abit 4 lunch... wile playing game suddenli mum settled nex 2 mi n qn mi... i was shocked n hope she didnt noe watz e reason... she kept asking y n wat happened bt i kept playing e game n igroned her... my eyes was full of tearz... once she left my rom i cried... cnt stop it... it laz 4 abt 10 minz... my eyes almoz bengkak... ofline n tried 2 gt a slep...bt cnt... my head kept playing yest's lyk video... i cnt lied myself... mum was toking 2 busu wen i was trying 2 cut myself... bt i cnt... had my grp's imagez wile trying 2 cut... i cried again... - im sori if i hurt ur feelingz - [bt u nvr felt sori tat u hurt mi]
