a new day... a new year... a new resolution needed... a new leaf turned... a new love desired... a new emotion to feel...
dad woke me up around 9... had my shower and breakfast... went down to shop to buy bread and newspaper... cashiers @ 7-11 and all my neighbours wish me a Happy New Year... am i happy...? i guess.....? not...? anyways get back i watch a drama with mum then i cook... o yea i hurt my hand while cooking... very2 painful... i didnt slash ok...? don't worry i wouldnt do that anymore... but instead a huge amount of HOT oil splash onto my hand... damn my hands macam kena masak sak...! really... usually i kena the pop2[small2] but this one huge one... my hand was in total red and my daging[flash] da macam masak... so end up mum finish up working... i listen to ria... listening to bistro 89.7... i went laughing with hafiz coz he wanna wish a caller something but tersalah cakap... hafiz2...
then i continue watching tv and listening to ria... rewatch the countdown 2oo7... alamak miss the part where my taufik sings and the two chinese guys sings... eshk... jj lin pun ok eh... ok whatever... then i watch suria... alamak sembilu 2oo5... tengah boring so tengok jek... i miss vince... o yea heard fiza o sabo her parentz... huhu... around 3.3o i woke mum up then i play comp for while... around 4 i ate my lunch then shower... play comp then siap... went out with mum around 6... took bus to interchange then took train... i was listening to ria... suddenly i sleep... sleep mahs... ok ok then mum woke me up @ eunos... alighted there then we walked to the bus 154... waited so long...
alighted @ haig road... mum wanna buy me school uniforms... i nak lain, lain yang dia nak belikan... haiyo... its raining but not heavily... just renyai2... walked to joo chiat... i felt thristy so i bought a can... walked to the bustop @ mcd and took bus to interchange... took train to tampines... train was kinda full but not on my gerabak... we then walked to TM... took the escalator to level 2... into afew shops... saw a nice bag @ converse... but then the price also nice... into sportslink...? then into addidas... mum into helen so i also... saw a nice necklace but i dont want...
then we went to level 3... mum bought brochz... went down again to level 1 then walked into isetan... i was looking2 around and saw a nice top... macam coat... only $19... but i dont want a top @ the moment... i want a bag... yea you heard me... i want a bag for school this year... i was about to go out when i looking for mum but she wasnt around... where's she...? my pair of eyes search for her... o yea i saw her next to nice tops... i was about to ask her to keluar skali i saw the bag that i want... like the one @ the pasar malam but this one ada brand... i told mum i want it and i really want it... did she buy for me...? nopexx... she just walked away like that... i was standing there da macam nak breakdown... really... i just remain silent and we walked into metro... ingatkan ada kak bai but we didnt see her...
we walked to the "exclusively hers"... shoes...? nopexx i already had... went into a shop that has the bag that i want... i told mum and try to convince her... did she melt...? hell no... and i really2 do breakdown there... mum wants to eat her dinner... i wasnt hungry... actually i was hungry but im soo heartbroken the way mum really do to me... i really breakdown... @ the foodcourt mum was asking me ' i wanna eat? ' but i just remain silent or shok my head... i listen to ria... i went hungry... i cried... kc plays lagu usah lepaskan and i cry more... doesnt my silent or not eating my dinner really prove i want it...? mum just continue eating and i continue crying... every moment from then i cry... be it i was walking, taking the escalator, sitting in the train, waiting for the bus...
anyone who was passing by me or walking in front of me who was holding to the bag or their new bag i cried... so badly...? yea... i dont know why but that does prove i want it... now that i have to keep my wish till next year... 364 more days and lets see what will happen... i dont know if you believing me... till now, yes now im crying... im so jealouz with others... parentz offer them things that they want... be it they already bought it before... me...? dream on daya... next year pun lom tentu i can have that beg... apa la nasib... yang mahal memang my parentz dont want, apa lagi yang murah... they are so full of excuses jek now... tanye jek cakap macam2... eshk... bestiiez its ok... you guys just use your new bag... i had my old... and if you feel bad for me, thanks... i just hope my sadness wouldnt last long... beg, your not mine this year...
